MERRY CHRISTMAS, dear YOU!
May peace be your gift at Christmas and your blessing all year trough!
Best Wishes!
Jesus loves y'all... :*
You said this could only get better
There's no rush 'cause we have each other
You said this would last forever
But now I doubt if I was your only lover
Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
'Cause I'm not over you
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
'Cause boy you're driving me so crazy
How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I'll go away
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain
So where's the fire, you've begun the rain
Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
'Cause I'm not over you
Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
boy you're driving me so crazy
And if you don't want me then
I guess I'll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know
So I'll make the call
And I'll leave today
I'm gonna miss you 'cause I love you baby
Yeah, I'll make the call
I'm leaving today
And leaving always drives me crazy
*imisstheoldyou*
pernah ga sih lo ngerasa lo berada dalam pilihan lo harus berubah / ngerubah sesuatu atau lo bertahan dgn keadaan skrg yg bkin lo ga tenang?
yap..gw ada di posisi itu..
gw bener2 ada di posisi "mau ga mau", mungkin karena apa yg gw mau udah bukan jd "sesuatu" tapi jd beban..
berubah jadi cuek dan bodo amat, mungkin itu plihan gw..
karena terlalu ga dipikirkan apa yg gw pikirin..
disaat gw ngerasa ga suka atau kesel pun gw kyk dilarang punya perasaan itu..pura2 sabar..
capek mungkin, tp gw ga tau.. seperti kehilangan kenyamanan yg gw rasain dulu..
entah kenapa mulai merasa udah banyak yg hilang dr diri gw..
bersyukur,ikhlas dan bertahan..entah sampai kapan..
jenuh kah gw? ga sepertinya.. cuma mulai merasa ga nyaman sm apa yg gw jalanin dan gw dapet..
apa yg gw jalanin udah jd ga seistimewa pertama gw masuk kedalamnya, waktu itu semua terasa indah bgt, dan mgkn gw adalah perempuan yg paling bahagia..
sekarang, semua jd kayak biasa aja..
gw udah ga ngerasain keistimewaan itu lg..
gw dipaksa harus mengiyakan semuanya bhkan hal yg ga gw suka, tp ga buat sebaliknya..gw dibikin kyk kebo yg dicucuk idungnya yg harus ngikutin maunya tanpa excuse..
gw udah ngorbanin semua trmasuk org2 terdekat gw, tp gw ga dapet apa2.. gw kangen mereka semua, mereka yg slalu ada buat gw pas gw seneng pas gw sedih..bahkan mereka jarang bkin gw sedih.. mereka yg paling ngerti gw dan paling tau gmana gw..
Tuhan, beban ini..sampai kapan?????? :( :(